lifes great in singapore. beijing is not too bad but well, singapore is just more HOMELY.

getting a bit stressed up though because there are loads of stuff i dun noe and everything has to be built up from scratch. suddenly, it feels theres too much to handle!

shall write down my goals and aims for the semester in beida because somehow, i need the drive and motivation to start studying or else i m nv gonna catch up!

there are times when i feel like giving up and keep telling my own victim story to my friends and family, but these will never help. sometimes, some ranting and rattling will do but i just have to gather myself and move on. suddenly i realise there are so many ppl out there who care for me, who give me their full support, just to see the day i will shine and excel. i used to regard it as expectations ppl have for me and feeling all stressed about it. however, thinking of it from a different POV, its the way people are giving to you and when we learn to give, we must also learn to take.

well, i guess Advanced Course has changed me qute a bit in terms of how i see things and how i feel for ppl and the things around me. I am now more of a giver and less a taker and i really got what it means to open your heart and let everything flow. sometimes, when i distance myself from people just because they are not of the same frequency as me, i think twice. and i learnt that when i open my heart, accept people for their flaws and how they behace, i become happier in life because at times, they are a mirror of how i behave and afterall you realise they are fun and happy people to hangout with. i guess thats the greatest thing i gain from the first mth in beida. Acceptance, giving and taking.. never knew it was so crucial.

i love my friends and families. they are imperfect beings but the care and love they shower is unconditional. Advanced was a major milestone in my life because i learnt how impt it is to treasure them and to love them. It is only after the course i began to realise how important it is to treasure every sec i have with my parents. every sec every millisecond. FAMILY was something that kept coming up to me and i have told myself to place my family above all.

and to my dear frens out there, i love you all and tcare! Live your life to the fullest, make a difference and a change.

i m glad i have been living up to my contract. I AM A COURAGEOUS PASSIONATE AND DETERMINED WOMAN! i will paste it on my wall!!!