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♥ Friday, February 27, 2009

yours truly, name

These two fruitful days have been spent at eagle eye-internship!

The experience is wonderful at least! I am sure that medicine will be what I want. As of now, I just need to wait for my As results to decide which path to take. In the meantime, I shall relax a little, interact with the doctors and learn more. The doctors there have been real nice but i guess I can relate better to dr lim since he is a mp so our topics of discussion are not just limited to medicine but also to govt policies.

I am not sure why but I guess a hospital internship gives a lot of job fulfillment. Though these few days, I have been just sitting next to the doctor, listening to the patients' needs and the doctor's diagnosis and advice, I find that it is really meaningful. My heart goes out to the patients who really needs help, esp when bad news are brought upon them upon the visit to the clinic. The reason why i may consider being in opthalmology is because as of now, the most common eye diseases have a treatment, and largely treatments are reversible.. and these treatments are less complicated and the effects are significant. As of other treatments, the results are unpredictable, but for eye surguries, most of the time it will work out. These few days I have been spending my time in the clinic consultation rooms, witnessing several ops in the operation theatre. I love the one to one interaction and I guess thats what a doctor really needs to fulfill. Unlike a teacher who faces many students, a doctor specifically treats a patient, recognise and understand the needs of the patient. I guess a docor's task is somewhat similiar to mps...You see the patient/resident and you can interact with them, understand their stories, learn something frm them and whats most important is that you rmb who she is and what her problems were. I guess thats the joy of being a doctor and bringing joy for your patients. You rmb your patients so well that you feel that they are part of your life. I guess at mps, the reason why I love it is because I can rmb each and every resident who have met me and I can help them episode by episode.

A doctor saves life. This is so freaking cliche but this is so true mann. As an eye surgeon, you bring vision to a patient to see the world in an entirely different light figuratively and literally. Most importantly, all the surguries done are so delicate. Every mm/cm of cut counts. I love seeing the smile on patient's face whenever they regained perfect or almost perfect vision, be it from cataract surgury or lasik. I guess I share the same feelings too when I did ortho K. Every morning I wake up to have real good vision, it just feels so rejuvenated and fresh! I may reconsider my choice later but I have to get in med first.

Well, as I have heard, 6th seems to be the scary day that is coming. I hope for the best and may god help me in a similiar way I have helped myself. All the best Yvonne!

Cheers! meeting tll peeps tomolo.

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3:23 AM

♥ Tuesday, February 24, 2009

yours truly, name

hey today is my last day at TLL. HA! I am not leaving la but the atmosphere is like this is my last offical day at TLL and that I am leaving for long. My wonderful interns, prob with exceptions of SL and AWG wrote me lovely notes! I felt so touched when HC General Secretary, one of the highest ranking individuals probably in hc helping me run errands. Honoured. AHAHA! I hope you guys will still stay when I am back. Will be back on 9th .

the wonderful day, dated 6th March is coming and I am both excited and worried. Excited that the entire thing is just gonna be revealed and worried cos I want to hit my targets and expectations. Well, at least for now, I hope I can leave my worries aside and think o the bright side. YVONNE WILL MAKE IT!

ystd night was a totally wonderful day!! HAD BDAY DINNER WITH MY FELLOW TLL INTERNS!! It was a night filled with great company, great drinks and great food ( FOOD FOR THOUGHTS AND LOADED POTATO SKIN AT HOG'S BREATH!) yes, I got drunk last night totally with this cocktail and some beer so much so that I failed my alcohol test this morning mann. GREAT JOB.

Actually I love packing lib books! This is random but I definitely love my good old days back at TLL, stealing stickers from the recpetionist and running about, disturbing teachers, talking crap in clas but ya most of the times i behave like a model student. Its different to be working there and studying there.

A random comment. I think when the no. of interns is lesser, the atmosphere here is more like a close knitted family, but when the no. gets bigger with more ppl like u noe who, it becomes an envt we have to be politically correct all the times. Yes, we need a code of conduct but amongst these group of interns, I really hope that we can emotionally relate to each other well and from a close knitted family. But i guess the wonderful atmosphere present in the past was kinda gone in a way. Will see how it goes..

Met VAL today at AMK HUB, our wonderful meet up place. She passed me my BDAY PRESENT AND A CARD!! love it mann, it shows how much we have gone thr as friends, from tuition frens, to frens piaing for common tests and to frens gossiping about work, school and A lvls. LOVE YA! see ya soon! all the best for As..

I love my 19th! HANG ON GUYS!WILL BE BACK SOON!

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7:13 AM

♥ Saturday, February 21, 2009

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yea, the day finally arrived. I feel so old. A lot of stuff happened last night, both good and bad and I hope that ppl can be more understanding these days. REALLY. left work at 330 ystd to go for public speaking lessons. LOL. I cant believe that Sam really commented that Chin Yu's shirt was ugly, at least thats what she think. I hope I can have nicer colleagues for my hospital attachment! Got loads of bday wishes from friends! HAPPY! ya and i think someone waited for 00:00 to arrive but sent out the message 1 min earlier, at 23:59! LOL.

I feel that my life is changing too fast for me to accept. A series of unfortunate and fortunate events have occured. SGH has reached a max quota for their internship, so I was more or less rejected. NNI has also rejected me cos they dun accept non med students. I have two medical attachments pending, and two confirmed, so just make do with what I have. I am picking up a new language, so that when all plans fail, I will study intl rlns as the last resort. BUT i really hope that I will do well enough to qualify for medicine.

HA! I guess some people are just too overly worried about their results, of which they have no control over. If results can make you so worried to an extent you have no control over your emotions, I am not sure how you are supposed to overcome challenges or worries later in your life when you work. I am not pissed but just that I do not understand why you are so worried that your life have to come to a stop, in a sense that you have to forgo everything.

Results make me think of what tong always says. Yes, results are not impt, but only in the later part of your life, just like how when you have ur A levels results, people dun freaking care about your PSLE. Yes, but at this point of time, I am still a student, waiting to go uni and good results give me the choice of what I want to do. I do not want to do sth so unrelated to my future job. I guess you will only think that results arent that impt when u have proven to yourself that with not so good grades, you can still achieve what you want. I have yet to prove it to myself and I am not sure whether my capabilities can bring me that far, so results are impt to me at least for now. But i will let nature take its course. With good results, I will try medicine. If i cant, then I will take plan B or C!

Results aside, today is supposed to be a special day for me, so i shall not talk anymore about people who are so insensitive to the feelings of others. yes! VAL YEO! we should meet soon!! YEA YEA! miss you mann and we can have our exchange of gossips and hot news!
going for class gathering later! YEA! cya

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5:53 PM

♥ Friday, February 20, 2009

yours truly, name

I am blogging NOW whilst I am supposed to be at work but my brain is fried to an extent that any attempts to try thinking is a failure. The job at TLL can be challenging at times but its getting mundane over the weeks. To all interns, I am taking leave wef next wednesday till probably three weeks later for my medicine internship. To shimin, wing and prolly vivien! Hang in there! Will be back soon to hear all of your bitch. today's lunch was kinda weird cos some ppl are just so insensitive. OMG! Ok, went off with audrye after that to sign up for french lessons but they were all fully booked. MANN! The reason why I am learning french is not because I miss mugging but I want to learn something new, something that wll eventually benefit me in the future. Well, when all things fail, I will most probably take up Intl relations for university studies. Well, hope for the best! Called sgh to ask about my internship since they did not get back to me, but ya bad news, I think they have too many students applying. YEA! Emailed Dr Lam and some NNI doctors to request though! Hope to hear from them soon!

Well, discuss with mum this morning and told her tht my current learning lab job, though not too bad is perhaps taking up too much of my time. I need time to prep for my uni interviews, apply for scholarships and learn new stuff. I so wanna fence mann!She kindly sponsored me to learn french and to continue with my public speaking.

2 more days!! I am turning 19 so soon! It so sucks to be old. I want to be forever18!

Keep fingers cross and hope for the best in everything that I do and in everything that is going to take place! YEA!

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3:44 AM

♥ Monday, February 16, 2009

yours truly, name

Shimin is finally back to the office and she broke the horrible news to me. It got me quite affected even though the gal wasnt really a close fren of mine but we knew each other personally. I was too shocked to do anything and the moment i thought of it, I felt my body becoming numb.

I have reservations about being a doctor suddenly. Something for sure, I love things to conclude with a happy ending but in reality, happy endings do not occur daily. The above mentioned issue aside, I guess to become a doctor, I have to change my mentality, to accept the fact that the reality is bleak and that this is sometimes not within my control. Much as scientific advancements can bring us so far, there is this little stretch which science or even the most professional doctors can never do. Since it affected someone i know, someone from hc, it affected me quite a lot. Hope everything goes well for her now that she is awake.

Life is fragile and unpredictable. Sounds so freaking cliche but i cant deny how true it is. The fragility in life is only viewed when man began to understand that an individual or other spiritual elements have little or no power over our body, but knowledge definitely do play a great role. Knowledge can be divided into two large categories: the known and the unknown and obviously, the unknown has made our life so unpredictable. I was so inspired by the book i read about medicine and its discontents. Love it.

The many things that happened around me made me treasure love and care from others around me even more. Though many of us try all means to avoid thinking about bad things that may happen, it actually hurts and emotionally affects us more. The reality is harsh though at times, the reality do provide us with a pail of miracles.

Nights. May god bless each and everyone of u.

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7:46 AM

♥ Sunday, February 15, 2009

yours truly, name

Being caught in a dilemma makes u think, makes you put on all ur thinking caps, drain your brain juice and you will realise you still cant make a decision. ya. thats what I am experiencing now.

I am still wondering if i shld go for imperial interview! IF someone can fork out 30 percent of the total fees for me, i will definitely go for the interview! ok, help help help!

i SO WANNA GO TAIPEI OR BANGKOK SOON!

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7:50 PM

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yours truly, name

This month has been a month, filled with joy, laughter, sorrow and disgust. I have a whole pail of mixed feelings and emotions which I have poured out to many of my closer friends.

Yesterday was V day of course. Went for the ntu thing before proceeding for my public speaking cls! (LLCM!!) Despite being a single ( which I am very happy with my current status), I had a huge load of fun nevertheless. It was more of like a TLL interns night, where we set out for dinner at Food For Thought! I have always wanted to taste the food there but because most of the time when I was there, it was largely for gp tuition and kind of had no time for FOOD! I ate a pulled pork sandwich and shared this peach crumble with audrye and weiying! Pulled pork- the name explains it all- imagine the pork being pulled till the meat become shredded! OUCH! AHAHA! Food there was nice and the atmosphere there was cool. We took some pics before we left.

The 4 of us ( except weiying who left) decided to go to mind cafe and started playing really cool yet stupid games. Chin yu suggested this game called true colours and the game was totally a game for him since he got most of the votes for most unglam stuff and zero votes for the less unglam ones. I was not saved from some of those unglam stuff too. Then we played this game called Dirty Minds which I was damn interested in right from the start when I saw the game on the shelf! OMG! that game is meant for those who are already dirty so that they can begin to think of less complex, less dirty stuff.. AHEM, so for me, since I am like so pure, those dirty notions keep flooding my brain everytime someone says a hint. This game was very much like a TABOO game, just that clues were given!

Went for a talk with weiying today followed by cheesecake at HANS! cool. Had a great chat. I cant imagine both of us staying near one another.... imagine we will be talking loads of crap and gossiping abt loads of ppl like across our block! RAH!

Recently, loads of stuff have been disturbing me from what others did to the everyday stuff I have been experiencing. One thing for sure, I am quite worried for my acadmeic results, for my uni studies and I haven made up my mind as to whether i shld go for my imperial interview. RAH!! I am quite disturbed by people around me- of all different sorts- domineering, quiet, unsociable, weird, disgusting peeps..

I am really glad that I am working in a nice envt with nice colleagues, who share similiar views, opinions, motivated by almost the same stuff and most importantly of the same frequency as me! I WILL REALLY MISS YOUR! ( if i go for my internship!)

With the budget 2009, I am really quite touched by what the govt is doing in terms of healthcare subsidies. MPS has been really an eye opener for me, seeing ppl so disadvantaged and some stories truely touched me. I am a tough person for sure- I want to look strong, look tough but within me, I do have a soft side-which I will not reveal lest u are really a close friend.

Saw this random quote: "If you love something, let it go. If it comes back to you, its yours forever. If it dosent, then it was never meant to be. " This quote, though explains the harsh reality of life is true, esp with the many stories I have heard so far from frens. Love is beautiful because its a mystery. =D Love and friendship contains this unexplainable mysterious connection and element that links each and everyone of us up.

cheers

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5:48 AM